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Book Synopsis'Radical, honest and timely' FOX FISHER
'Fascinating' ASH PALMISCIANO
'A cracking read' MEG-JOHN BARKER
"This book is about my penis. This is my story of going through lower surgery, specifically phalloplasty, and the adventures I have with my changing genitals along the way. Welcome to my journey."
After coming out as trans, Finlay Games was adamant lower surgery would not be a part of his transition, but as the years went by, and his gender dysphoria increased, he decided to explore surgical options. Detailing the emotional and physical journey of phalloplasty, this book takes the reader through Finlay's experiences, from the initial decision-making through each stage of the surgery to its completion, recovery and after-care. Describing how he had to relearn his body, sexuality and his relationships, Finlay shares his wealth of advice and tips on donor site options, different types of surgery, the referral process, essential items and resources, and looking after your mental health.
Part memoir, part self-help guide, this insightful, witty and deeply honest book highlights the life-changing impact surgery can have for trans people and provides hope to those on a similar journey.
Trade ReviewThe tongue in cheek phrase 'top to Bottom' explores openly, honestly and candidly, one individual's journey from sexual shame and gender dysphoria, to gender and sexual autonomy. This uncompromising tale inspires and challenges us. As a trans man myself, Finn has always encouraged and motivated me. For helping to dispel fear and those accompanying ghost stories, thankyou can never convey enough! A must read for anyone considering Lower Surgery and those who support us. -- Dr. Wenn B. Lawson (PhD) CPsychol AFBPsS MAPs
Top to Bottom is a wonderful trans memoir and a greatly needed resource for anyone considering phalloplasty. Much more than that though, Finlay's book is a human story of the move towards authenticity and belonging. Told with great warmth, humour, and self awareness, it's a cracking read for anybody. -- Meg-John Barker, author of How To Understand Your Gender and Gender: A Graphic Guide.
Top to Bottom - a story you've never heard before but a story that needs to be told. This memoir is universally written, acting as an outstanding guide to any trans man about to embark on this journey but also a fascinating insight into the complexity of being human. Finn is an extraordinary writer, his tone is warm, painfully honest, profound and humorous. I'll be highly recommending this book for years to come. -- Ash Palmisciano, TV Actor and Speaker
Finn has given us a gift. A timely companion on the journey to advocate for ones own pleasure, hone the hoop jumping skills needed to medically affirm ones gender, and to nurture the community needed to raise a penis! -- Dr. Liam “Captain” Snowdon, Genderqueerdo & Co-founder Institute for the Study of Somatic Sex Education
A grippingly in-depth and honest account of a process that's rarely been told so openly before. Radical, honest and timely. -- Fox Fisher - Artist, film maker and campaigner
An engrossing testimony to transformation and learning to love your body...told with warmth and insight. -- Gscene
The insightful, witty and deeply honest book that so many of us on a similar path have been hungry for. -- Phallo.net
Table of Contents1. Awakening to the Absence of my Penis
2. Finding the Right Penis - Exploring Lower Surgery
3. Making Sacrifices for a Penis - Weighing Up Losses and Gains in Phalloplasty
4. Preparing for a Penis - The Official Referral and A Long Wait
5. The Arrival of my Penis - Stage One Phalloplasty
6. Adjusting at Home and Early Recovery
7. The Long Recovery - Two to Six Months Post-op
8. The Freedom of Standing Up to Pee - Stage Two Phalloplasty
9. A failed attempt at Stage Three and A Giant Step Backwards
10. An Unexpected Sexual Awakening
11. Peeing Freely Again - Re-hook-up Success
12. The Gay Experiment
13. We Have Lift Off - Stage Three Success
14. Final Health and Reflections on My Journey
